the boring me.... zzzzz....

well.... have been doing a bit of reflecting and to my horror... i just realised how boring am i!-_-! i have no idea how my friends actually hang around me.... sorry peeps for my boring-ness...>_< really appreciate all of you and the interesting-ness u brought into my life...:D it really seems that i have became more boring ever since i came back from Japan (then again.. i could just have been like that before i left for Japan! *shudder*) recently it seems that i am unable to form a conversation however trivial with anyone... any attempts to converse with someone will often be foiled by my own thinking 'bah, the person's not interested... man.. i am not interested...-_-!' and thus, i got caught up in the vicious cycle, me rejecting myself, other rejecting me, causing me to rejet myself..ahhhh.... it's the end of the world!!!!-_-! looking at my life now... i realised that i play games, watch tv and bum around most of the time... as much as i enjoy a bit of a drink sometimes, i dun do that often (maybe once a month)... if i am going out with friends, it is mainly to watch movie and hopefully that friend has an agenda.. if not... -_-! he/she will be stuck with me and my cancerous boring-ness... hmmm.... wonder what went wrong o_O? still...:D i wanna thank God for showing me that for all my boring-ness... He still love meee! woots! and Him loving me, provided me with lotsa interesting friends! YOU!!! woots!

places and memories...

i just finished watching the film 'Lost in Translation'... really enjoyed the show.. welll. first of all, it is shot in Japan! hee.. and second of all, reminds me (partially) about my stay in Japan... :) what do i remember so fondly about Japan? is it the place itself? the people? the pachinkos? well...:) after watching the show.. i realised that most of my memories of Japan were associated with people i met, and the places i went with them... these are what make Japan so precious to me even as i think of it now..:) some of u might have heard of me saying that i dun really like Tokyo due to the crowd.. but i guess.. i do miss Tokyo because that's where i met soooooo many interesting people..:) i remember Shimotakaido for the Usui family that i stayed with during the 1 year... i remember the walks i had with Otousan as he showed me the place.. the dining table which we sit to have our meals together... i remember Waseda because of the friends i made there *cough*NAOKI!!*cough* and my fabulous Japanese class classmates.. i remember Ueno park for Yilin..:) walking together under the show...:D i remember the hospital for Carolyn.. lol... lalalala.. well.. many many memories... to list them all down will be imppossible!! w(well... not really but i am running short of time..:P) and each associated with a person..:D these are my most precious experiences in Japan... i still love the country, the culture and the scenery.. but most of all..:) i am looking forward to meeting more people in the future if i ever go there again..:)

of walks and Waseda..

was walking to school one day when i remembered my walks to school in Japan. Every morning i will walk 15 mins to school for Takadanobaba Station. Initially, i was pretty putted off by it but i came to get used to it. Today, even as i walked to the science faculty from the bus stop which i usually stopped at, i remembered fondly about those walks. i really do missed Japan, everything about it. the train rides, the walks, the televisions shows, the streets, everything... sigh.... i have no idea when can i go back and stay there again... i really wanna do that... to just mingle in the midst of all those Japanese-ness... bleh..